This was not the first time I ran away like Jonah, but as always, God would not let His plan come to a halt. When I was Form 3, I knew about this SPM subject and I was really interested. At form 4, I pushed down the desire to take up the subject. Not sure what were the reasons but yea, I didn't take.

A few months after, my friends called me to join the bible knowledge class. So I asked about the date, venue & etc. Found out that the class was clashed with my chinese class. I struggled upon which was more important, but again, I turned down. Telling myself, I can learn about the bible in church and through quiet time. Also, I had missed a few months lesson, I don't think I'll be able to catch up too.

Once in a while, I had the feeling that I should really take up the subject. Still, I didn't take any action until this year. At February, we were decorating the Christian Fellowship board at our school. My friend, Eugenie, was taking along her bible knowledge textbook and so, I picked it up somehow and flipped the pages. I told everyone I always wanted to take this subject. My friends gave me advice to take if it really is God's calling. I was still fickle minded about it. So we decided to write "yes" or "no" on papers and asked God whether I should. I got "no" and also "yes". I fold and picked it up over and over again until I gave up, saying I will take the subject, God will stop me if it's not His will. I borrowed The Gospel Of Luke textbook, past year papers and I really got so excited about finally taking up the subject. Now, the only problem was, will the school allow me to add another subject? This was because the due date for adding and dropping of SPM subjects had passed. Furthermore, the principal had always been quite prejudice against our school Christian Fellowship club, so it was a low chance she will approve of it. Nevertheless, I decided to fight for it and prayed that God will make a way for me.

I told my parents about it and requested them to help me write a letter to the principal. What I didn't expect was, my mum actually refused to. She was worried I couldn't catch up, get bad grades in my SPM and that it will affect my scholarship application or my future. My dad didn't gave me any support too as I turned to him for help. I begged my parents for days, it was really getting too late. But that was the moment, I realised, I really had a burning desire to take up bible knowledge. Though my faith was a bit shaky, I didn't give up and kept persistent in prayer. Then, I came back home from school one day, with my mom's written letter for me to appeal bible knowledge for SPM. Praise God! I was overwhelmed. In addition, the appeal was accepted so easily, though I got a little lecture and some hurtful comments from my senior teacher, but it was approved! God even prepared me two great bible knowledge teacher to guide and lead me through this subject.

 I was getting along well. God was with me and He had bless me as I ace the subject even when I felt I don't deserve to. I did go through discouragement from some people who question me of why I would take bible knowledge. Overheard conversations from people who said they were lucky they didn't take the subject and the high fives at the back. Once, I couldn't stand and shouted that I wasn't afraid of the grades. The main purpose I took up the subject was because I'm proud to be a christian and having that subject printed on my SPM cert, I am content because when I head on for college or work, people would know that I'm a Child of God and I'm not ashamed of that. Before trials exams, I was down when I wasn't quite ready for my Bible Knowledge exam. Then again, God lift up my spirits and assured me that I'm on the right path as He miraculously had me read up 4 testimonies of people who shared about taking up Bible Knowledge in their SPM. All the way He was with me and now, I had sat through the subject for my major exams.

I'd done what I could offer to Him and I tell you, it really felt great bowing down in obedience to God. And the lessons learnt in bible knowledge, it's life lessons and it stays on forever, unlike the other subjects in the world!

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