There's no objection, I lie, I judge, I greed, I revenge, I boast, I sin day by day, minute by minute. My sins were recorded, and store up in a huge library with it's date and time. I'm not the greatest friend. I'm not the best daughter. And I'm not a good christian. Each day, I prayed for forgiveness. I failed You a gazillion times, but yet Your mercy remains. You tore off the pages of the recorded book, You took Jesus's empty paper and fill in. You made me clean again.

Probably you will sacrifice your life for your precious family members. Maybe your good friend. But will you sacrifice for a criminal?! Jesus, You volunteer to pay for our sins when we are nothing, NOTHING to You. But yet You ask us to come to You and be Your children. How could we not see Your love?

I have decide. To take this act of obedience. To publicly confess that I've accepted God as my personal saviour. As I was immersed in the water and out, I feel the joy. And Father, I don't want to be a backslided christian, a seasonal christian nor serve You because of fame and glory but because You have already given me so much. I want to be faithful and committed. Teach me to deny myself and carry the cross. I'm not perfect but I am trying my best.

Lord, You hold me now.

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